��� 2005-08-22, 10:52 p.m.
Glockgirl the Great?
I video taped myself doing my kung fu forms yesterday. I should have called someone who hates me and let them rant for half an hour instead, it would have been less painful. Ouch. I have a long way to go.
I might be part of a demo in October that goes along with the school's booth at a local arts festival. If I feel right enough with my sai I might go ahead with it. I look the least ridiculous with the sai.
I had a dream last night that someone broke into the house. They threatened Bill. I shot them three times in the chest. I think it's the first time I ever actually killed someone in a dream. Usually it's the slow-motion, I hit but barely make contact, scream but nothing comes out kind of dream. Funny that this dream comes right after I am brought painfully down to earth about my kung fu. I guess I had to realize my weaknesses in order to know my strengths. Or some other philosophical horse shit.
In any event, it was a very scary dream but did not leave me waking up in a sleep paralysis mode. In general when I wake up from frightening dreams I'm unable to move for a minute or so after leaving dreamland. (Of course, in the dream I was usually a big pussy, completely incapable of defending myself or others.) So the fact that I awoke from this violent dream in full capacity is also quite relevant. Is something happening? Am I finally coming into what I've always wanted to be? Strong, capable, intellingent under fire, clear thinking in the presence of danger? Stay tuned for more updates.
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